Many years ago, I was going through some tough times. At one stage, I decided I needed to retreat from the world and signed myself into the top floor of the hospital where people dealt with emotional issues. I wasn't myself and tended to stay withdrawn from other patients and the staff, when I could. I spent lots of time alone in my room, mostly thinking. One thing I've always found though is that, regardless of how my mood is, my physical wants and needs didn't change. It was tough to deal with during the day, so I didn't often indulge in any do-it-yourself relief. There were a couple of times when I belatedly realized somebody was heading down the hall into my room and had to quickly pull up my pajamas. I recall having nurses come in and having a major cock bulge that was pretty obvious. One day, I went to the nursing station and asked about having a bath or shower. There were bathrooms in each patients room with toilet and sink, but if a patient wanted a bath or shower, there were two general big bathrooms with tubs where you could take a leisurely shower or tub soak. If that's what you wanted, the nurse would take you to one of those bathrooms, and since there were no locks available to patients, they'd use a master key to lock you in and arrange to come back later when you were done. When I asked at the nursing station that day, that was what I was anticipating happening. It was a bit of an issue.....There'd been several new admissions and both the big bathrooms with tubs were spoken for. The nurses conferred among themselves and came back to the counter and told me what they'd worked out. There was an area on the far side of the nursing station that wasn't actively being used as renovations were pending. The nurse I spoke to told me that they'd make arrangements for me to use it, but that because it wasn't an active part of that floor, a nurse would have to stay with me. I shrugged and said that was okay with me. In the back of my mind, I was secretly hoping it would be one particular nurse that I'd taken a shine to, Jennifer...She was unusually attractive to me and I found I enjoyed being around her whenever circumstances permitted. Luck wasn't running with me though, and I was told that Maggie would be going with me. I went and found clean clothes to wear afterwards, and Maggie showed me where facecloths and towels were stored. She walked us through a maze of halls and I began to realize that it was probably as isolated as any place on that hospital floor. She locked doors behind us, and I found myself in a shower room, unlike anything I'd seen before. It was basically bigger and wide open, with some stalls along one side where patients could store the clothes and anything they'd brought with them and several open showerheads. Maggie suggested I should choose a stall and get undressed. I felt a slight sense of embarrassment as I started disrobing. I was still at an age where I looked pretty good....tall, slim, and reasonably well muscled because of the work I normally did. So, I wasn't shy about being seen normally, and I realized that nurses, because of their work, were accustomed to seeing bare bodies. But I realized as soon as we were locked into the shower room that I was very aware of the fact that I was starting to feel aroused. I took off my socks and shirt, and finally got to a point where it was time to pull off my pajama bottoms. I pushed them down and stepped out of them, and as I turned back toward Maggie, I could feel my cock getting quite rigid. I was still young enough that when I had a hardon, it stood up quite proud and prominent. I asked Maggie if I was going to be able to shave, and she said yes. Normally, on that floor, patients weren't allowed razors because they might harm themselves, but because I had a nurse there, I was being permitted to have mine. She suggested I should have a quick rinse and then shave. I walked over to the closest shower head a few feet away and adjusted the water temperature. It felt great to have my first shower in a couple of days....quite refreshing....and I spent a couple of minutes under the spray. I was turning around and as my head and hair got wet, I had an excuse to cover my face. I was actually looking through my fingers to keep an eye on Maggie. She was a cute thing, Scottish, small and trim, about thirty, with a big head of red hair. She was definitely interested in watching me, and as I realized that, my cock became even more rigid when I saw her eyes glued to my bare body. I eventually felt rinsed, and stepped over to her for my razor and a bar of soap. I lathered my face, feeling a slight beard starting. She said something about not having any mirrors, and I assured her that I was accustomed to shaving in the shower and didn't need to see. I began to shave myself, slowly and carefully. I was in no hurry to get this over and done with, and I was beginning to enjoy being naked and showing her my cock. Several times, I turned into the showerhead to rinse, and found myself flexing my ass, fairly sure that she was watching. I knew from being told by women that I had what they called "a nice ass" so I found myself enjoying having a reason to be naked for an extended period of time with a good looking girl. We talked, and I continued finishing shaving my face. When I was done with that, I went over and handed her my razor. I went back to the showerhead again and started scrubbing myself. I washed as much of my front side as I could...chest, arms, shoulders and rinsed. I smiled and asked her if she'd wash my back. She seemed happy enough to do that, so I handed her the soap and got my back side wet. I walked back over to her, turned around, and really enjoyed having a lady scrub my back. She didn't use a wash cloth...I could feel her soaped hands rubbing my back and it felt so nice. I'd sort of expected her to stop at my waist, but I was pleasantly surprised when I felt her soft hands on my buns. I really hadn't anticipated this and I was glad my back was turned to her so she couldn't see how my cock was flexing from feeling it. There was a point where I could feel her hands sliding down the crack of my butt, and I began to feel like I really wanted this to go on. Just after she brushed against my rosebud, she stopped and murmured something about time to rinse. I walked away toward the water, and realized as I looked down that precum had started to form on my cock and a long drool was starting toward my feet. I was torn between wanting her to see that and maintaining my decorum, but in the end, I let the water wash it away before I turned and rinsed my back. I went to her and took the bar of soap, following her lead by abandoning the wash cloth. I washed my feet and slowly scrubbed my legs from my ankles to my upper thighs. I'd saved the best part for last, and I stayed facing her as I washed my front below waist level. No wash cloth.....I soaped my hands into a lather and slowly washed the good parts. I thoroughly enjoyed washing between my legs and slowly washed my balls. My cock was so rigid that I was almost beyond pulsating....It was just clenching really, really tight. I took my time washing my cock being sure to wash below the glans and the frenulum, and finally using my soapy hands to stroke my cock shaft. Stopping that and not continuing to stroke myself to an orgasm was one of the toughest things I had to do.....I wanted so much to have her watch me jerk off ad cum, but I was afraid to cross that line. When I was clean, I wandered over to the water and rinsed. As a final touch, I went back to her and asked for my razor again. She seemed a bit surprised but gave it to me. I soaped my crotch again, and shaved myself there while she watched....the base of my shaft, my balls, and my perineum right back to my ass. I made it last as long as I could, but eventually, I had to pass her my razor and rinse my crotch. It felt so nice to be really clean, nicely shaved smooth, and my erection absolutely peaking. I wished I could do this every time, and hoped maybe there'd be a reason to come back here again to do it. She passed me a towel and I dried myself off. When I was pretty much dry, I looked at her with a bit of a smile. She blushed and said "Maybe you should relieve yourself before you try to put your pajamas on." I was thrilled - I'd hoped but hadn't really expected that there'd be a chance, but it was a perfect opening. I grasped my cock and slowly started to stroke myself. She mentioned that other nurses had remarked how I seemed to be dealing with erections other times when they'd been in my room. I initially thought she was referring to a couple of close calls when I'd almost been caught masturtbating during the day, but she said something that blew my mind. One night, when the nurses were doing late night bed checks, my favorite nurse, Jennifer, had come into my room. I'd kicked the blankets off and my erect cock had been peeking out through the fly front in my pajamas. Apparently word had gotten around, and all the nurses had come by at least once to see my sticky, aroused cock showing itself. When Maggie told me that story, it was the thing that pushed me to that point......I suddenly began shooting thick ropes of cum that were travelling an impressive distance. I didn't do anything to clean up the mess, but I remember there was a big blob of cum on my hands that I Iicked. I hadn't even stopped to think about it....It had just been an automatic response, as I loved to taste my cum when I jerked off. Maggie noticed though, and she smiled when she saw me doing it. She picked up the towels and washcloth in one hand and my razor in the other. I was so completely detached from where I was that if she hadn't mentioned it, I'd have probably strolled out of there naked, but she smiled and said "You need some pajama bottoms". I suddenly realized, and hurriedly pulled them on. She tossed the towels and wash cloth in a hamper as we were leaving, and as she unlocked the door, she said "Who knows, maybe we can do this again". I think that was a turning point in how I was feeling. I started to feel better and almost happy, and within a couple of weeks, I was ready to face normal life again.